dear Tamoxifen,
I am sick of losing four or five day of my life to you every six weeks or so. At this point I am almost hoping ( not really but that's how I feel) that next weeks mammogram on the remaining breast shows up with something that will require surgery so I can ust be through with this. I have lost 10% of my stregth, endurance and motivation from the first mastectomy and now matter how hard I work, it seems that I am still slowly sliding backwards. I am defintiely going to talk to the Dr. about just getting rid of you but with my luck, the changes and bouts of tamoxifen "poisoning" ( hot flashes, sweats, anxiety, loss of sleep, weepeiness, depression, anger, moodiness, and temporary weight gainwill become a permanent fixture for my life whether I take the **** pills or not.

signed I want my life back.