Body image is something I struggle with, and although I like to think that things have improved since I've become really interested in cycling, (I want my thighs to be stronger rather than just thinner), some of the negative self-talk has just.. Changed. For a while there I had this idea of what a cyclist looks like, and I really really wanted that. I've really started to question why a hardcore cyclist needs to fit into that image I have in my head, why I feel like I have to be really thin or really fit-looking or really hot to be a cyclist. And the best thing for me has been to spend a lot of time perusing TE and seeing real life examples of hardcore cyclist women, who manage to be hardcore in all shapes and sizes.
It makes me sad to think that a spinning instructor would feel like they need to look a certain way, although I guess I'm not surprised. When I used to take spinning I used to love being instructed by women I could relate to. I can't relate to perfection, but I love seeing women who are so healthy, so strong, and so fit, and don't resemble a cookie cutter image of a fitness model. Those women are healthy role models for me, because being healthy and fit and strong are things that are attainable for me - being very thin is not.