Thanks so much for your posts and support. The perspective helps.
The thing that made these thoughts come to "a head" in my mind was some instructor training-meeting I had to attend. The training teacher is one of the head instructors. She can teach any class, mainly aerobics dance & rarely spin. But, much loved, and a total Barbie doll.
How we should dress and conduct ourselves came up serveral times in the training. And "wearing fitted clothing to show our physics", as it was put, etc. kept coming up.
The majority of teachers wear make-up when they teach, and I know base their clothing even on "looking cute" to teach class. Uh... me, I have my Buff holding my sweaty hair back, not looking model sexy... I figure we are working it from the neck down.
OK, the fitted clothing does show our form. Which I wear my indoor bike shorts, and a fitted tank (very hot in spin room even with fans). But, I pick my clothes on technical performance, not because it "looks cute". For some I think it's a way to win the cute aerobics girl teacher popularity contest. That is not me. Nor is being a Barbie doll in any manner (natural red head).
One of my direct bosses is also a cyclists (not the teacher that did the training). Very accomplished team racer back in her day. And we joke that we do not fit the bean-pole babe class at all. It was just me thinking that part of management was saying we "should be" bean-pole babes in our cute clothes.
On getting to know my peeps in class. Yes. I am probably one of the best at that. And my die hard regulars know all of my struggles, crashes, etc. I agree with what's been said that they do honestly respect that.
My weight and how I look, minus my bean-pole counterparts, is good healthy average fit--normal folks. My cardiac fitness is very good still, despite being less than my peak training prior to the crash.
It's just the meeting situation comments, and how I know quite a few talk out of the meeting (about one another etc.). That made me think, "uh, is someone trying to tell me something here that I don't know about, or what?"
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Plus, the gym members do recognize you... and what else you do for your fitness. I have rode with the club outside before--harder than originally planned, and then had to teach class that night. I would *never* confess that to my students. And management has talked with some instructors who work out AFTER they teach--to be seen by students. Because... some think in order to be fit... they have to be you. Well... guess that's where being the average weight chick probably does help my class in a way.
OK... that helps my mind... think I gotta find a way to put the Barbie-Girls outta my head. And lose my weight for ME... to be lighter cycling my hills outside, versus feeling like I'm conforming to some pressure that's unrealistic. My TE friends rock.Thx
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, and how I know quite a few talk out of the meeting (about one another etc.). That made me think, "uh, is someone trying to tell me something here that I don't know about, or what?"
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