I'm sorry you're struggling with this. I used to be really skinny because I was under a lot of stress and felt nauseous all the time and ended up losing a lot of weight unintentionally. But over the last couple of years, that has subsided and I've been riding a lot more. I've gained about 10 pounds, but I'm actually happier with how I look now, because riding has made me way more muscular. I may look at myself and think I'm thicker, but it feels right, because I know if I was as thin as I was before, I would never be able to do the things on my bike that I do now. I'm proud of my body because of how it powers my bike. I don't know if that perspective helps at all. I think the most important thing is that you're healthy, and that you're able to do the things you need to physically. Also, if you're recovering from an accident, know that your body will fluctuate throughout your life because of different circumstances, and it's okay. I think most of us are probably harder on ourselves than is necessary, and we are good enough, even if we don't feel it. Probably my other bit of advice would be to not take for granted what you have now, because it can easily be taken away from you, and things could be a lot worse. But I'm sure you realized this after your accident.

-Jessica