Thanks, everyone.
I made an appointment with a psychiatrist today. She came highly recommended from a friend who works with her. Her first opening is on March 26th, but I'm on the waiting list if there are any cancellations. I think I can hang in there until then. I know I shouldn't, and that this is such a terrible thing to think: but I feel crazy for even making the appointment. The stigma is that only crazy people see shrinks, but I know that's NOT true. Good people who need help see shrinks. I'm doing a good thing for me. I just hope she can fix my brain.
Thanks again for all your thoughts.
Eclectic, the story of your sister made me so sad, but I'm glad that she finally is diagnosed correctly and feeling much better. And I don't know what you went through last year (I mean- I know that your SO passed away, but I can't empathize with you), and I'm glad that you had help to see you through that terribly sad and devastating part of your life (which I'm sure you're still not entirely through with).
I know my situation isn't anything huge. My teaching partner's son is slowly dying of a brain tumor that can't be operated on or treated with anymore chemo. SHE has it rough. My good friend is leaving her husband this week with her two young daughters. SHE has it rough. I know we all have our cross to bear, I just try to remember that my problems aren't that bad (but I guess if they're the worst problems I'm facing then they're that bad).

Anyhow, I'm rambling. Thank you all so very much!!!