Catrin, I would like to add my heartfelt sympathies for the loss of your mother. There's no easy way, I think. But I will say that when I lost my mom in 2007, the sympathies and good wishes of fellow TEers were big comforts for me. I wish you peace of mind and love and support from your good friends and family as you go forward.
"My predominant feeling is one of gratitude. I have loved and been loved;I have been given much and I have given something in return...Above all, I have been a sentient being, a thinking animal, on this beautiful planet, and that in itself has been an enormous privilege and an adventure." O. Sacks