I don't know how helpful this will be for you, but here's my point of view...
I don't race, never have, because I'm just not interested in it.
I've always been pretty average speed on the bike, which is part of the reason I've never been interested in racing. I wouldn't do well, and I'm not interested in doing the kind of work that would be needed to be faster. But also, competition would make cycling more stressful for me, rather than a way of dealing with stress from other parts of life.
I belong to two cycling clubs and do various centuries as well as club rides. I keep track of my speed on rides and like to see improvements. In some ways I do have a competitive personality, but not when it comes to cycling.
- Gray 2010 carbon WSD road bike, Rivet Independence saddle
- Red hardtail 26" aluminum mountain bike, Bontrager Evoke WSD saddle
- Royal blue 2018 aluminum gravel bike, Rivet Pearl saddle
Gone but not forgotten:
- Silver 2003 aluminum road bike
- Two awesome worn out Juliana saddles