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[betagirl]

Snap I just noticed your handle. I don't always see everything around this board, so I'm relatively rarely in "the know". Just curious....

[DrBee]

Snap - nice house! The property sounds great. Daffodils and all! Jo's right - in the middle of winter, you'll be happier here in SF than you would be clearing that driveway!

V - exercising at 4am? You're determined, that's for sure!

Beta - yicky schedule you have there. Good luck!

[Kitsune06]

I have terrible sleep habits. Sleep hygiene if you will. Anyone else do this or some variation of it?

I fall asleep in front of the TV constantly. Been doing that since I was a kid, to the point I'm pretty much conditioned to be out whenever I'm in a semi comfortable position with a TV on. It usually doesn't matter how interesting what's on is, the nods come. So I don't literally watch a lot of TV Problem is sometimes I wake up and don't go right to bed, so then I'm awake sometimes for several hours. Unfortunately the time I need to get up doesn't get any later. Tomorrow is my l-o-n-g day at school. Start at 9 am and end at 9:30 pm.

I do something close... I get home at midnight-30 most nights, but 4:30am Monday and Tuesday... I *try* to be in bed within a half hour of getting home. Then I wake up when DGF gets up (1-2 hours later) and follow her around as she gets ready for work, make coffee, etc (when I'm lucid enough) then more unconsciousness until 10 or 11, at which point I 'call it good', get up and shuffle around the house until 4 or 5 before going to work again... I need to learn how to sleep through the sun coming up. I will, of course... just in time for winter or the advent of my new job, where I'll need to get up *before* sunrise.

[crazycanuck]

Nanci? Where are you? Hope all is well..Come back to TD..I miss your threads on Dillbird & Maisey.

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[KnottedYet]

Guilt.

This morning just before 1 a.m. I drempt I was hearing a lot of screaming. Then I heard the woman in the apartment above me talking, and it woke me up.

Went out to the livingroom, there was a woman somewhere behind the building screaming and people walking back there trying to find her and someone talking to her. I couldn't see much of what was going on. The police arrived right away. My next-door neighbors, Jesse and Sam's dogs were out barking at the police, so I realized the woman was just outside their apt. I figured Jesse and Sam were helping her along with 3 or 4 other folks from the building.

I never went outside, because I didn't know what was going on, or if it was dangerous, and I didn't want to leave SKnot sleeping alone in an empty (dangerous?) apartment with something scarey outside.

Things went on, and eventually as the police and ambulance and woman were leaving I pieced together that the woman screaming WAS Jesse! Because Sam had shot himself in the head. I have a soft spot in my heart for Jesse and feel awful that I never went out to help. That I was too chicken and too worried about SKnot to even open my door.

Guilt.

[maillotpois]

OMG Knot - how terrible! I don't know that I would have opened the door, either. Really, what could you have done? Shot in the head - I am assuming he is dead? How very sad.

[Bicyclette]

Knotted -

I'm so sorry you went through this - I know it doesn't help but you have no reason to feel guilty - the police were there - an ambulance was there - what more could be done? Your first obligation (in my opinion) is to your child - you did what any responsible parent should do. Don't beat yourself up about this.

[snapdragen]

Oh wow knot, that's horrible. Don't feel guilty, you did what any mom would do, thought of your child's safety.

[snapdragen]

Snap I just noticed your handle. I don't always see everything around this board, so I'm relatively rarely in "the know". Just curious....

Do you mean Amici Veloci my A$$? It's the official AV greeting! And in reply expect to be flipped the bird. All in good fun.

[DrBee]

OMG Knotted! That's awful! You did the right thing by staying with SKnot.

[DebW]

Oh, Knotted. What a tragic situation. You made the best decision with the information you had, and you kept your son safe. There will be time later to comfort your neighbor.

[margo49]

Knotted you have 3 obligations in life b4 all others
1. Stay alive - like every other creature this is our basic imperative
2. Don't endanger yourself (especially voluntarily) for anyone or anything other than SmallKnot
3. Look after SmallKnot till he is BigEnoughKnot
All the rest is untenable biologically
(altho' it may be admirable, heroic,resourceful,etc)
You did the Right Thing.

[Nanci]

Craze, I'm here. Just too filled with ennui to drift much.

Knot- geez! I understand how you feel, but good instincts to protect the kid above all.

Snap- what a beautiful home. I'm envious, too. I would _love_ any kind of water on my property. I lived on a lake once- and there was a beaver dam that I could walk across through this swamp to a secret woods with all kinds of trails. It was so nice.

Pet news: Maizey is holed up to shed again. So she was going blue last weekend and hiding, and didn't even get an opportunity to not eat. I was worried about her, so I touched her while she was in her hollow log, and she just put her head by my fingers and licked me, but didn't come out. I made a new, larger "moist hide" for her in case she wants it, (plastic container, upside down, with lid on, with snake-sized door, with damp moss inside to help her shed) and put plastic wrap over her cover to keep humidity in till she sheds.

We went out to dinner with friends last night. Husband said he'd bought too many new babies at the reptile show, and offered us a baby California King, white with black markings, very "bitey," rattles his tail, rears up like a cobra...(He should work out of that, though with handling.) I haven't decided for sure, but am leaning toward taking him. They say he's eating all right.

I rode 35 miles Saturday, club ride, 75 miles Sunday, with two friends, one who does brevets with me, the other from my group, her longest ride ever. During the ride we had to cross a (dry) river with a bridge removed for construction. Then 35 miles for the club picnic Monday, during which I got stung in the head by a wasp who flew in through one of my vents. It felt like someone was taking a saw back and forth across my scalp for pretty much the rest of the day. I took Benedryl and iced it.

[Tater]

Pet news: Maizey is holed up to shed again.

Nanci, how often does she shed?

[maillotpois]

Nanci - I've got some ennui, too. That little king snake sounds pretty. You couldn't keep 2 snakes in the same enclosure could you? Our gecko has a similar shedding spot as you describe. The PP is very good about keeping it damp. She's a cute little gecko, but I don't think I'll be able to get over how creepy that fat tail looks.