thanks for your kind remarks and the phone calls. It all helps!


Hmmm. After reading the discussion on whether to post info about biking accidents, I feel obligated to defend my very personal post.

While some of you will find my post too personal and inappropriate for a public forum, my defense is this:

During the relationship, I would not discuss my feelings. I didn’t want to come off as weak. I didn’t want to burden Andrew and others with my life’s stresses. Rather, my feelings were expressed (to Andrew) by being abrupt and rude about trivial issues. I was taking my stress out on Andrew in a most unjustifiable way and he has finally had enough.

While on the trip with Veronica I was compelled to talk to her about the communication issues in my relationship (seeing how close she and Thom are), but didn’t. Too personal, I thought. I don’t want to burden her with *my* issues.

Following the break up, I contacted no one. Too embarrassed by the feeling that I have lost such a great guy due to my stubborn reluctance to express my feelings.

Finally, seeing my distress, Andrew insisted I talk to friends and I am beginning that process. Putting things in writing in such a public way forces me to acknowledge that I am hurt and is a way for me to overcome my reserve in expressing my feelings. “Yes World, I am human and my life is not perfect.”

For those who take exception to such public expression, my apologies for the offense.

Often this forum is welcoming and a joy to read. Other times, I feel ridiculed for my opinions and feelings.