Dear Jan,
Since I first started watching the TDF (1998) I have admired you. You live this crazy lifestyle, where during the off season you enjoy your food, your wine, your child and whatever else is going. Then you get back on the bike, and just grind out the miles getting ready for the Giro and the TDF. And you get there. Last year I saw you in France; I saw you standing on the podium and (in the privacy of this forum) while I admired what you had done thus far in the TDF, for the first time, looking at you standing so tall in your T-Mobile strip, I had thoughts unbecoming to a 50 year old lady (whose children were standing nearby). Jan, I am devastated from every angle; professionally, sportingly (is that a word?), as a fan, as an admirer, as someone who looked up to you. Say it ain't so, Jan, say it ain't so.
A