Quote Originally Posted by KSH
I guess in the end though, I just wonder, "What have I done to deserve this" (Pet Shop Boys song), and I wonder why there are some people in this world who are allowed to make messes everywhere they go... and continue on with their lives as if they did nothing wrong.
I still have my moments of wondering what I did to deserve this, heck, I have a lifetime of wallowing in self-pity behind me. But I feel so much stronger when I think in terms of "What am I taking away from this? What lesson have I learned?" In my case, I have learned to stand up for myself, to like who I am and not someone else's version of who I could be if I would only let them "help" me . I know I will never repeat my Relationship from Hades, and have gained boatloads of self-respect from being completely disrespected by my ostensible partner. I believe these relationships happen for a reason, though I'm still trying to figure out what possible good could come out of me not being able to move back to my hometown thanks to X and his filing a custody suit here in boiling hot Texas...