hey late...you sound like you are doing the right by you! and that is all you can do!

i am still coming back emotionally from a wreck that involve 3 people (all of which are fine!!!) that were taken away in ambulances...i was not hurt (MINOR scratch) but i bent front wheel beyond truing and had to have derailer hanger pulled back to straight (gotta love steel!) i still have issues with drafting, but when i find myself behind a strong experienced rider i do much better! if the person in front of me or in a paceline that is squirrely i have to hop out and just ride by myself! but to get to a point where i could draft again took many months and many, many hyperventalating rides! (everybody wanted to give me their asthma inhaler...haha...little did they know it was nerves) i have stopped hyperventalating but i still feel i am worn out faster cause i am emotionally exhausted from facing fears! something i crave mtbing but road riding has been a different monster for me?!?!

there are many stories here at TE...cycling has been a soul-saving experience for me and i would have a hard time giving it up!!! one i know has given up cycling for other enriching activities after a long grueling recovery....but only you will know what is right for you!

you sound like you are anxious to get back in the saddle...just do not push yourself too hard and enjoy those slow recovery rides!

the thrill of courage is overcoming your fears!!!! best wishes and strong vibes being sent your way!!!