feeling defeated ughh...

[smilingcat]

Hi Catrin and BlessedB,

Thank you for your concern. I tend to be broody, deep in thought. Part of the problem is I'm just too critical of my own actions.

Yes I'm highly frustrated because things are taking much longer than I wish. All of it should have been done long time ago without any cluster &$#@ but then it would not be reality. The male engineers I worked with loved the term cluster $#@ to describe one failure on top of another...

I dwell on the negative so that it gets corrected. I think is the best way to describe my propensity to be broody especially when I'm in midst of my projects. Some times I feel overwhelmed by them.

So I'm not so sure if I want to call it depression. Once the problem is solved or projects completed, I'm happy for about a second. Job well done, pat myself on the back. Okay. next problem...

back to the drawing board with a sharp pencil.

Still puzzled over why my Eee netbook is not loading up the latest PuppyLinux, an upgrade. Until then I can't communicate with the $30 laser. no go with the printer driver and PrecisePuppy distro. Another source of my frustration. Eee pc from 2008 is what I'm using right now. It's only six years old!! DAG NABITT!!

[Crankin]

Negative thinking and feeling overwhelmed is a hallmark of depression (and anxiety). Glad you can make it motivating, but it's not fun or good for your mental and physical health. It leads to cognitive distortions if you continually engage in it.
OK, therapist hat is off and I am back to my regular self.