I am sorry Pax. I felt numb when my mom died, even though she was very ill for a long time and I definitely prepared myself. I remember being in the grocery store and feeling numb. But, after the funeral, that went away. I guess that's why we have funerals. People thought I was "cold," because I wasn't hysterical and I went right back to work, but that's what my mom would have wanted. I guess what I 'm trying to say, is that everyone is different in this situation.