Dear special friend... I'm still floating on the memories of HI and all of the fun we had there. Thank you for that much needed break and all of the adventures we found there. I can't wait to go back with you.

I know you want to take our lives together to the next level, and I do as well, but I'm still working on me in many ways, finding my ground and repairing the programming I was under for many years. I'm still working on the whole "it must be my fault because you make me feel like it is everyday with your comments and your neediness and fragile ways" thing. I started to recognize it when I was away from and then exposed to my Ex over the past few months. I'm making great strides in calming that old programming and being my happy/confident self again, the way I was before all of that was installed into my brain like a computer virus. You are a fantastic person and I want to get to know you much more and be a part of your life for a long time. But, I just need to get project Xrayted in a more complete phase so I can really give my all, because you/we deserve that. You are one of the most free, crazy, intelligent, funny, generous, loving, grounded, independent women I have ever met and that is the ultimate of sexy to me. You aren't here to save or complete me. That is my job. I will be a work in progress my whole life because that is what we are here for on this earth, to progress and learn and love others and love ourselves. I just need a bit more time to get myself to a point that I can walk into the role of your partner as an equal, as a strong woman who can give and receive, to need you but not be needy. The want is there, the desire is real, the love is blooming. The crack is in a state of repair but I'm getting closer to sealing it up. As we medical professionals know, an injury heals and is stronger than the parts around it and so I want this to heal correctly so I can be the strong woman in your life for when you need my shoulder, and to feel free to be the weak one occasion and yet be strong enough to be able to come to you when I need to. It's a delicate balance right now for me but we're talking and are learning to communicate on that level with each other... to confide, to listen, to speak our minds, to be corrected or guided in a slightly altered direction when we need it. We are on the right track.

Thank you for being a mature adult who is a kid at heart.

I love you too. <3