((INDY))
I've been estranged from my mother for over twenty years. She was actively alcoholic & abusive which resulted in many adjustment problems for me. I made some major life changes that threatened her. She cut me out of her will - literally - sent me a Fed Ex that I had to sign for where I was deleted & her step son was inserted. Just like a word processing program for her but not so much for me.

It totally sucked, I fell into a deep depression and crawled back out. I am not angry at her because that expends energy and keeps the arrows flying. I do not have any contact nor do I wish to have any. It is self preservation. I had to refocus my life and move on. It wasn't as easy as it sounds now but I'm at peace. When I realize that our estrangement is not against her - but it is for my own basic well being - it feels better. Hope that helps.

Oh and riding my bike really helped move energy that I may have directed towards myself (bad daughter, etc. - the usual crap.) I seem to get a lot of clarity on my bike when it's just me, my bike and nature.