My kitty has moved on to her next life....

[lovelygamer]

Thank you everyone. I'm glad you don't think I was stupid. I really felt horrible afterwards. She hadn't had a serious illness in five years though and I really thought it was minor. Poor baby. I don't think she had really bad suffering until the very end though-that was the first time I heard her cry out.

One thing I realized about myself. People always say that making the decision to put an animal down is the worst decision ever and so impossible. I have heard that people feel guilty either way they decide.

About six months ago, I was involved in the process with my ex husband as the dog we'd had together was also old and ill. He too, was terminal. We made the decision together to have him put down but we had a vet come to the house so it could be in his own environment. I was there and I cried just as much when the light went out of his eyes.

I tell you what though. A much as it hurt me, the second my cat made those painful cries like nothing I had ever heard from her-I would have taken her to the vet and done it. That may sound terrible to some but I couldn't handle her suffering. I did my best to keep her comfortable and I was planning to take her to the vet at 8 a.m. no matter what. I can't stand to see an animal suffer and by then I realized there was no turning back. I have learned a lot about my ability to go through that.

Her name was Skittles. She was my sweet and good girl to the very end.