I understand your panic. I've lost track of how many emergency or almost emergency visits to my eye docs I've had over the years. I had one just this week in fact. The "nice" thing about the medical eye issues I've had is that at least my insurance covers them. My expensive lens are all on me.
Live with intention. Walk to the edge. Listen hard. Practice wellness. Play with abandon. Laugh. Choose with no regret. Continue to learn. Appreciate your friends. Do what you love. Live as if this is all there is.
--Mary Anne Radmacher