May/June Weight Loss Challenge

[Tri Girl]

163.8 WTH???v Awesome- I gained 2 lbs. Super.

grrrrr... I am NOT happy about gaining 2 lbs this week. I didn't eat that terribly.... but I didn't workout as much as normal (2 days less than normal). Some days I swear I just want to take diet pills and say to hell with the consequences of damaging my heart. I'm SO sick and tired of fighting this weight battle- I want to scream. Why can't my weight be a non-issue instead of an all-consuming issue all day, every day of my life since I was a teenager? I know it could be worse, but still...just feeling frustrated. Just so sick and tired of fighting this battle and so sick of the emotions that darn scale brings out in me. I'm down I'm happy for a week. I'm up I get cranky. And everyone of my naturally thin friends keep trying to tell me tips and tricks the last few weeks (and I'm not even asking for their help) and I want to punch them because they've never struggled with weight and they don't know what it's like to eat well, deprive yourself and still struggle to lose poundage.
Sorry for the rant. I actually feel a little better.


Rant over- back on the wagon...

[Veronica]

I'm not a naturally thin chick, so don't punch me. Especially since I'd punch back.

Are you doing any weight training? Seriously, I think my weight training work with my trainer is the best thing for keeping my weight down.

Veronica

[Tri Girl]

I'm not a naturally thin chick, so don't punch me. Especially since I'd punch back.

Are you doing any weight training? Seriously, I think my weight training work with my trainer is the best thing for keeping my weight down.

Veronica

I won't punch you (mostly because I KNOW you'd punch back and I know it would hurt).
I stopped weight training about a year ago. I know that it helped when I lost weight before, but I was starving myself back then and when I started eating again (but still weight training), the weight all came back +10.

It's not that I don't know what to do, it's just that I'm so tired of counting every bite. I just want to eat healthy and maintain a healthy weight. I have two extremes:
1. I'm either being SUPER strict and watching/counting every bite and losing weight or
2. trying to eat normally and gaining.
I have NO idea how to maintain.

I'm just uber frustrated lately. Less than a month ago I was 6 lbs lighter right before my marathon. I gained 5 lbs in 2 weeks, without much change in anything. And now I can't lose 1 lb to save my life.
Bring on the phen-fen

I know, I know... I should start strength training again, I'm just being pouty... Thank you for trying to be helpful (and not telling me to just get more sleep and I'll lose weight, or only to eat out once a day and you'll lose weight- not that I eat out at all- or just drink green tea the weight will melt right off.... grrrr skinny chicks)

[Veronica]

So my next question...

What's your ratio of carbs/protein/fat? What's worked for me is a 40/40/20. I'm not super strict about it, but it's my general goal.

What I'm hearing is that you're restricting what you eat instead of finding a way to incorporate what you like into your diet. For example I love Trader Joe's cinnamon bread - 390 calories of carby goodness! plus the butter Totally throws my carb ratio out of whack. I eat it on days I run, have a race or a long bike ride. If it's a swim, weight training, yoga day, forget about it. I swear the stuff makes me run better!

I HAVE to have a sweet after dinner drives me crazy if I don't. Drives me crazy that I need it. Right now it's Trader Joe's chocolate covered frozen banana bits. A serving is 4, I eat 2.

Life sucks when you don't eat what you like, but you have to figure how to make it work. Depriving yourself isn't going to work. Which I know you know, but I wanted to say it anyway.

And you know, how many IM and marathons have you completed? You rock girl and you can do this.

Veronica

[Tri Girl]

So my next question...

What's your ratio of carbs/protein/fat? What's worked for me is a 40/40/20. I'm not super strict about it, but it's my general goal.

What I'm hearing is that you're restricting what you eat instead of finding a way to incorporate what you like into your diet. For example I love Trader Joe's cinnamon bread - 390 calories of carby goodness! plus the butter Totally throws my carb ratio out of whack. I eat it on days I run, have a race or a long bike ride. If it's a swim, weight training, yoga day, forget about it. I swear the stuff makes me run better!

I HAVE to have a sweet after dinner drives me crazy if I don't. Drives me crazy that I need it. Right now it's Trader Joe's chocolate covered frozen banana bits. A serving is 4, I eat 2.

Life sucks when you don't eat what you like, but you have to figure how to make it work. Depriving yourself isn't going to work. Which I know you know, but I wanted to say it anyway.

And you know, how many IM and marathons have you completed? You rock girl and you can do this.

Veronica

Thanks for the encouragement, V. When I incorporate what I like to eat, I go back to gaining. Maybe when I eat what I like I eat too much and that's the reason for the gain. I have to find that perfect medium of eating what I like, but maintaining. I think it all comes down to me being incredibly frustrated that I lost 35, gained back 45 and am struggling like heck to just lose 20. I don't need to be a size 4 like last time I lost: I would be slap-happy with an 8/10 (I'm almost 40, my body doesn't lose like it did when I was 30).
I guess I want it to be easy and I know it's not. I was so determined to NOT race as athena this season, and with my first two races next weekend, I'm still WELL above the athena cut-off. I'm disappointed that food rules my life and that the scale rules my emotions. I just want to be normal (not that I have ever been that way, but I can dream).

Thanks for the tips. I'll jump back on the wagon and get this thing taken care of. I WILL be 150 or less by the IM in late September. I might kill me, but I WILL do it!!!

[Veronica]

I don't need to be a size 4 like last time I lost: ...

I just want to be normal (not that I have ever been that way, but I can dream).

Thanks for the tips. I'll jump back on the wagon and get this thing taken care of. I WILL be 150 or less by the IM in late September. I might kill me, but I WILL do it!!!

This bit made me laugh. I went clothes shopping today and had to get size 4 pants. Ahhhh... I weigh 142 pounds. I should not be a 4! So I suspect you'll be a 4 or a 6 when you get to 150.

Normal... you sound pretty normal to me. I obsess over my weight, what I eat, my training, my classroom... That's normal.

Yeah, you will do it.

Veronica

[SheFly]

Ahhhh... I weigh 142 pounds. I should not be a 4! So I suspect you'll be a 4 or a 6 when you get to 150.

What the h*ll am I doing wrong! Even when I am 150 (which is my typical summer race weight), I am STILL a size 10! GACK!

SheFly (who is currently closer to 160, and who's DH just told her so...)

[Veronica]

Maybe it's where you shop? You're taller than I am. I'm just really compact I guess.

In Bean, Title 9 and Athleta stuff I take a 6. But at J Jill I'm a 4.

Veronica

[SheFly]

I don't shop a lot at Title 9 or Athleta, but at Bean, I am definitely a 10, but a small on top (guess that tells you where I carry the extra). Sigh. Doomed to be a size 10 forever (or, at least for now and the past 10 years...) .

SheFly

[GLC1968]

Hang in there, TriGirl! And, V is wise. I have similiar thoughts and she's pretty much covered what I was going to say. I will mention that restricting your calories really low is a BAD idea. Been there, done that, refuse to ever go back again!! You know you've done something bad to your metabolism when you are doing 800 vigorous minutes of exercise a week (including heavy weight training and intense cardio), eating 800 calories a day of super clean food in a 30/50/20 ratio (c/p/f) and still barely eeking out a 0.5 lb loss a week when you still have 25-30 lbs to lose. Yeah, that was me about 7-8 years ago. Never again. I think that because I have now made it a priority to NOT cut my calories low, I have made peace with a slower rate of loss. If it means that when I'm done I've preserved my muscle and my metabolism, I'll be a very happy girl.

Right now, I'm in 4's and 2's on top, 6's and 8's on the bottom and I'm 5'4" and 150 lbs. Go figure.

Speaking of which - 149.7 for me this week. It's TTOM, so I'll take it!

[Possegal]

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[Possegal]

Thanks, Possegal. You know, I was on a really strong antibiotic up until a week ago. Augmentin or something like that. Is that an antibiotic?

Augmentin is an antibiotic, and though some antibiotics are known to cause sun sensitivity, augmentin isn't really a drug that is known for it. But that said, there can always be instances where a person has a reaction to a drug that isn't a common one. Your reaction didn't sound to me like just 'I got some sun'. I wouldn't rule out the possibility.

[channlluv]

Augmentin is an antibiotic, and though some antibiotics are known to cause sun sensitivity, augmentin isn't really a drug that is known for it. But that said, there can always be instances where a person has a reaction to a drug that isn't a common one. Your reaction didn't sound to me like just 'I got some sun'. I wouldn't rule out the possibility.

Thanks, Possegal. It could easily have been something else. My face is somewhat better, but I still have a lot of little red bumps on my chest and neck, and a few on my forehead and on my right cheekbone that hurt to touch. My face is still red and it feels warm -- it looks like I got sunburned, and I did, last Saturday. I just keep splashing cold water on. I'm still puffy, too.

Too much salt, I guess. I need to get back on my clean diet as soon as possible.

Roxy

[surgtech1956]

177#. ))))))

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The scale has a mind of its own... 114 on Thursday, 116 on Friday, 118 yesterday and 117 today. So...I guess I'll take the 116 and see how things sort out by next Friday! That goal of 112 seems very far away right now...