So my next question...

What's your ratio of carbs/protein/fat? What's worked for me is a 40/40/20. I'm not super strict about it, but it's my general goal.

What I'm hearing is that you're restricting what you eat instead of finding a way to incorporate what you like into your diet. For example I love Trader Joe's cinnamon bread - 390 calories of carby goodness! plus the butter Totally throws my carb ratio out of whack. I eat it on days I run, have a race or a long bike ride. If it's a swim, weight training, yoga day, forget about it. I swear the stuff makes me run better!

I HAVE to have a sweet after dinner drives me crazy if I don't. Drives me crazy that I need it. Right now it's Trader Joe's chocolate covered frozen banana bits. A serving is 4, I eat 2.

Life sucks when you don't eat what you like, but you have to figure how to make it work. Depriving yourself isn't going to work. Which I know you know, but I wanted to say it anyway.

And you know, how many IM and marathons have you completed? You rock girl and you can do this.

Veronica