
Originally Posted by
bcipam
Thanks everyone for your response... I realize this probably is not the place but it seemed as good as any to vent...
Indy - I get what you say about compassion... just know there is a really long back story and at one time i was compassionate towards my sister but after too many years of my sister always being the victim and feeling sorry for herself, I became hardedned to all her drama. For instance, 4 years ago, when my brotherinlaw was going through depression and using drugs and alcohol - instead of helping him she moved out and in with another man leaving her two teen age kids to care for a drunk father. The 15 year old came home and found him dead from an OD. My sister all of a sudden started to play the "poor widow" and became totally disabled just when those kids needed her most. Thank goodness for my other sister and I to pick up pieces. Anyway, long story, I could write a book...
Found out brother has stomach cancer; its advance. I'll probably be going home shortly.
Oh, I hear you. My sister has been a mess for years. Like you, I just couldn't handle it or her anymore. I do, however, feel sorry for her. I don't want her life, and I understand and feel sad for the things in her childhood and young adulthood that contributed to her dysfunction and mental illness. That doesn't mean I am not detached from her though. That much hasn't and likely won't change. I've just reached a point where I don't really need to judge her anymore for her mistakes. They're hers; not mine.
I'm truly sorry about your brother.
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