Resurrecting a friendship, or letting it lie?

[Cataboo]

If you're curious, write to her. Otherwise, just ignore it. Tell your coworker to say hello for you if she runs into her again, you bear her no malice, you just don't have time for that kind of relationship right now.

That sort of puts the onus on her coworkers to say she doesn't want her as a friend. Not really a nice spot to put the coworkers in.

[ACG]

Obviously you care enough to think about it, this shows you are a kind person, a little guilty, don't be. Your lives took different paths. That is what wwe call life.

Here is another side of the coin:

I was married to a controlling abusive person. I had to take my kids with me because he wouldn't watch them and I felt guilty always asking relatives to watch them. It was easier not to go out many times. I did work outside of the home, my one saving grace. My ex checked all my e-mails, so I never asked people to e-mail me. My ex would forbide me from associating people who weren't like 'us', no kids, not married, etc.

Fast forward quite a few years, when my ex became my ex. Some people who distanced themselves from me simply got a e-mail or note saying I had moved, here is my new contact information, oh by the way I changed my name (subtle way of telling them I'm divorced) contact me if you wish.

That was it.

I didn't chase people down to be my friends. With the aid or therapy I dont' unload my life issues on people, it isn't fair to them.

I'm not telling you this to make you feel guilty, just saying, she may just want to be polite on her side too.

She may just want work contacts, hard to say.

It is your choice, good luck with it.

[emily_in_nc]

Thanks for all the thoughtful and kind replies, everyone. I really, really appreciate your taking the time. I would not normally solicit opinions on something like this since I almost always just follow my gut and do exactly what I want to do. The reason I asked here this time is because I truly do not know what I want to do.

I don't want to email her out of guilt, and at this point, I am afraid that is what it would be, as some said. Even though she's sweet and fun to be with, I don't really have the time/space/energy for anyone else in my life right now. Especially one who doesn't live close, doesn't cycle, and whom it would be a bit of a hassle to try to get together with. Since moving to Chapel Hill in June, we've made new friends in our apartment complex, even a nice couple who cycles too, and it's just a lot easier to spend time with them since they're right here.

I wouldn't ask my former co-workers to deliver a message to her; I surely don't want to put them in the middle of this. I know she's not actively pursuing me or stalking me in any way; she just happened to get put into a breakout group with these two guys I worked with really recently, so naturally my name came up since I was a mutual acquaintance, and we all used to work at the same company -- she left 20 years ago, though.

I do care about her, but probably not enough to contact her, as I am afraid that she'd try to re-kindle things, and whether she's with or without her awful DH, I don't really want that, for all the reasons I've already stated. If I were lonely, retired, or single with a lot more time on my hands, I'd probably get back in touch, but I'm none of those, and I also value my alone time, being an introvert by nature, so I really do try not to spread myself too thin or over-schedule.

So, I guess after thinking this over, reading all your responses, and writing out my thoughts, I'm more inclined to just let this one lie. I honestly don't think she'll make contact again if I don't email her now. (Side note: I am also not on Facebook, feeling pretty much like badger about it; otherwise I'm sure she would have contacted me long ago because I checked, and she is.)

I just hope I can deal with the guilt. I have a very over-developed sense of guilt!

Thanks all...you're the best.

[Irulan]

guilt is what to feel when you have done something wrong. Which imsho, you haven't. It sounds like you are taking care of yourself.

[Brandi]

Best to let it alone and cherish the memory of the friendship you had. I became friends with a friend from years ago and it ended on a very strange note. Now I wish i had never rekindled it.

[tulip]

I removed myself from Facebook after an old friend found me. Well, that and all the security breaches and the fact that I wasn't getting anything positive from spending hours being a voyeuse.

This friend and I had had a falling out decades ago in college. Her life is completely different than mine, and I'm fairly certain we would have nothing in common to talk about these days. I just didn't see the point of rekindling that. Like Brandi said, I cherish the memories of when we were friends. That was then. This is now. I choose to look forward.