I had something similiar happen before in my start of cycling. I am so sorry for your heart. But, here is one thing for you to wrap your mind around as a positive if you can...

All things do happen for a reason, and even though your relationship with the bf did not work out... his passion for cycling was a vehicle for you to find your way to the bike... like a hidden gift... a positive outcome from a situation that went negative.

Even if you did change clubs, there will always be something that reminds you of him cycling related. For me, eventhough time has passed, I still see it everywhere to a certain degree.

These things will sting the scar on your heart. But, it doesn't have to break your soul & passion of riding. It's just part of the history... but not the end of the story.

(((hugs)))
Miranda