Thanks girls. I'm really touched by the care & advise that you all show. Last night DH & I had another talk. He does see there are problems, that we've grown apart. We went to a marriage councellor last week but won't be going again. The psychologist could see that we still had genuine feelings for each other but you're right Doc, he doesn't really have the time to attend sessions. Thanks for the book idea. I've downloaded the details. If we're not too far gone it may help. You're right too Irulan...I can see why I pick people who are unavailable. Dad left when I was 2 1/2 & mum had a mental illness (schizophrenia). Reads like a bad novel, doesn't it? Anyway, I can fit the pieces together & it makes sense. I've been working on myself for decades & thought I'd resolved most of the issues. There's always something going on in life, isn't there? Oh for the simplicity in life.
Your caring is invaluable to me. It's so nice to be able to open up here. It does feel a bit weird putting my life in print like this...I sense that DH wouldn't approve. I don't have any close "girl friends", so I really appreciate all of you.