Thanks everyone!
Today is a much better day
I did ride solo though, I was supposed to ride with a guy friend today, but I decided I just needed a little me time- went and and had a good 2.5 hours this morning.

I just got asked to come back to the LBS that I worked at previously part time, and I loved working there. And yesterday I had someone ask me to nanny 1 or 2 days a week.
So it looks like I am going to stay in south fl for a little and save up some money, and then move

And to everyone from Boulder, I will definitaly be getting in touch when I decide to move in a few months!! I used to live there for 3 years, but I wasn't very active then(i did some trail running, but that was it). So when I move, I would love to have people to hit the road with and learn the area on the bike.

Thank you so much everyone, your little words have been a huge help!