You want to keep your mind strong? I'm not sure what you mean like that? Does it mean being stubborn? you sound kind of stubborn.

You come in here and say; I have tattoos funny hair and I can't get a job. what should I do?

So you DON'T expect us to say; clean up your act, keep the fun stuff for after hours?

Ivona, I thank my lucky stars that I am not where you are. When people need strength, they go to their families. They forget about their pride and take advice from their elders. I was younger than you when I did that. it really burned me and I thought the advice was stupid, but since I did trust (my grandparents) them, I did what they said. And it helped me a lot down the road of life.

Read BlueTree's post about 3 times. She chose an even harder career path than you have, and she's made it.

Good luck