Grad School Gloom???

[firenze11]

I think that is one of my problems is just not enough time to breathe!!! I have ended up being over involved, but hopefully some of it will go away soon. I also think that in addition I am unhappy because I'm not quite sure what I want to do with my life. Rather than going out to the real world (I can't even tell you where I would even begin to apply) I have decided to go to graduate school. I love doing research, and the curiosity... I think that I just need to wait until some (especailly one) of my classes are finished.

Wow, I feel like I could have written most of your post, especially this part. I'm going through the grad school gloom, too. I think a major part of it stems from losing basically all of my personal time and work/life balance to school. I'm a perfectionist (but who isn't, right?) and it's really really hard for me to accept that I can't do everything perfectly the first time all the time so I work, work, work, work work and lose perspective that there's more to life than grades.

I also am unsure about what I want to do when I graduate. I'm doing history, so I get the question all the time. . ."what are you going to do with a history degree" and I think it's worn me down. And after this year, I need to get out of history for awhile. I also love research and have that driving curiosity so I thought grad school was ideal for me.

Anyway, I guess I'm not very helpful with advice, but know that you're not the only one going through it right now. My roommate is also in engineering and she's been asking herself why she decided to put herself through grad school, too. I'm personally trying let go a little bit and try not to put so much pressure on myself. I know I will be so proud of myself once I get my degree.

Good luck with everything!