Thank you all for your support.... I've talked with multiple professors about their experience with grad school.... and several of them had a tough time. It's a different kind of thinking, and I guess I just need to learn how to do it.

I used to go to counceling, and I would love to again, but I really jsut dont have enough time. I think that is one of my problems is just not enough time to breathe!!! I have ended up being over involved, but hopefully some of it will go away soon. I also think that in addition I am unhappy because I'm not quite sure what I want to do with my life. Rather than going out to the real world (I can't even tell you where I would even begin to apply) I have decided to go to graduate school. I love doing research, and the curiosity... I think that I just need to wait until some (especailly one) of my classes are finished.

Another problem is that I've rarely had a strong passion for something.... the first that really came along in my life was cycling. It's the best feeling ever (as long as I'm not a chicken about exploring new places). I love making people happy, not in the people pleaser way, but in the helpful way. (Does that make sense?) I think that I just need to get through this and time will tell. It has usually been pretty nice to me of leading me the right way.

Any other pieces of smarts or your experience with struggling to find your career?

Thank you all for your love!!!!!