Had a revelation today... (LONG)

[ASammy1]

I'm starting to get nervous about my appt. It's one thing to go on the internet anonymously and admit your issues, but it's a whole new ball game to sit in front of a perfect stranger and tell them how screwed up you are

On a positive note, my creative juices are flowing today and I plan on hitting up Michael's today for some new photography backgrounds.

[Crankin]

Just be yourself. And be open to discussing things that you might have never thought about as being significant.

[ASammy1]

Ok, thanks for the words of encouragement! I go at 4 o'clock today and now am just sitting here fidgeting...

[tulip]

I hope it went well, Sammy. You do NOT have to post about it here...it's out of our hands now and it's between you and your counselor. You did a good thing by going. You should be proud of yourself for taking such a courageous step.

[ASammy1]

Thanks Tulip.

So basically it was a disaster. I walked in to the office and the LCSW took one look at me and said, "You don't look disadvantaged. I specialize in helping the disadvantaged." So I said to her, "Well, why did your staff schedule the appointment for me when I very clearly explained the reason(s) I need to talk to someone."

So I guess it's back to square one...

I also just found out that DBF has an interview for a job in Hawaii. I can go w/ him, but I would have to give up my career, or I can stay here for my career and give him up. Obviously right now it's just an interview, but all these crazy situations are running through my head... I really want to go, but I'm scared to give up all that I've worked so hard for.

[tulip]

That's terrible (the appointment part, not necessarily the Hawaii part). Sent you a pm.

[polly4711]

Andrea,

We have a lot in common. On a lighter note (I guess) my DBF and I will be going through this who moves where in a few months when I graduate from my Masters and this start up company that he works for may be moving. Please keep me posted on how you are doing!


I need your advice though as someone who has suffered from an ED. I am a resident assistant in a dorm and there is a girl who vomits all the time (see reminants of it in the toilet). The problem is that I dont know who she is (I can't figure if it's one of my residents or not) or if it's someone from another floor. We (staff members) have been on the look out, but it's not helpful.
is there anything that you wish that someone would have said to you or could have helped you more and sooner?

Good luck with everything... you can do it!!!! (my mom made it do it too!)

JP

[letsride89]

i'm praying for you!!!

for what its worth...you are so worth it....

we all are!!!

[ASammy1]

Andrea,

We have a lot in common. On a lighter note (I guess) my DBF and I will be going through this who moves where in a few months when I graduate from my Masters and this start up company that he works for may be moving. Please keep me posted on how you are doing!


I need your advice though as someone who has suffered from an ED. I am a resident assistant in a dorm and there is a girl who vomits all the time (see reminants of it in the toilet). The problem is that I dont know who she is (I can't figure if it's one of my residents or not) or if it's someone from another floor. We (staff members) have been on the look out, but it's not helpful.
is there anything that you wish that someone would have said to you or could have helped you more and sooner?

Good luck with everything... you can do it!!!! (my mom made it do it too!)

JP

To be perfectly honest, it's probably not someone from your floor. In my experience, those with EDs try to hide it as much as possible and vomitting on one's own floor would be too obvious. Look for the girl with cuts on her knuckles (from sticking her fingers down her throat). Her teeth may be chipped because the acids in vomit weaken tooth enamel. Ask around. Her friends are probably worried about her too if they aren't doing it themselves. If you ask a girl if she's feeling ok or if she looks tired and she gets all defensive, CLUE! There is nothing anyone could have said to me other than a flat out intervention.

Good luck and keep me posted!

[ASammy1]

i'm praying for you!!!

for what its worth...you are so worth it....

we all are!!!

Thank you! I need the prayers right now...

[polly4711]

Thanks Andrea... I'll be on the look out!!!! Good luck with yourself... know that you are beautiful!