Thank you all. I went to see Mammaw at lunch and feel so much better. Apparently she had an 11 on the stroke scale but since she got to the ER within an hour she was an excellent candidate for the TDA drug. She is now quite alert and we had a great hour long visit. I got the key to her spice cake, promise that she was going to find a book I am coveting from her house and tons of alone time. I will cherish today for sure!

She told me all she wants is for no one to have to take care of her, like a nursing home. She is a spitfire.

I am sure my mom being older helps. She has also dealt with the death of her Dad in 1982 which ripped her apart. I am sure in her own way she is worried sick but what is dwelling on it going to do? I tend to be a drama queen anyway.

My Pawpaw (Dad's father) died of a massive heart attack in 2003. I still am prone to tear up thinking of him and not a day goes by I don't miss him. He had congestive heart failure but I didn't believe he only had 74 years.

I still need to go home, warm bath and a good cry. Too much stress out there.