It will get better!
First of all (((((smurf))))).
Second, I completely agree with OakLeaf. Having a plan is your first step.
I get really depressed when I'm feeling overwhelmed and confused about what to do too. What I do is take each item I'm feeling overwhelmed about and I make a list in chronological order of what needs to get done and then I assign a time period to it (kind of like a time line). This gets me organized and keeps me on track.
Lastly, surround yourself with positive people. I "divorced" the toxic people in my life a little while ago and have been much better off since.
Good luck TE friend!
Andrea
1988 Bridgestone mixte
2002 Trek 2200
2011 Surly Long Haul Trucker