(((((((smurf)))))))

It sounds like you work in a really toxic environment. I know it's not the best time to look for a new job, but maybe try anyhow. Talking to the boss sounds like a good idea (as I said in the earlier thread, a lot of what you mentioned before sounds like it's bordering on sexual harrassment, if not crossing that line). And whatever you can do to stay away from those people outside of the office, if I were you, I'd do that.

Having a plan can go a long way in alleviating the hopelessness and helplessness that goes with depression... although obviously being able to plan is one of the first things that depression attacks.

The cycle of depression can be broken in many places and it sounds like you're doing your best to attack it on several fronts (nutrition, exercise, animals), but sometimes it takes more than that. If you're still feeling this way in a couple of weeks (and honestly it does sound like it's been building for a while), do think about therapy. It sounds like you're aware that some of what's going on is that issues from your childhood are getting triggered. Therapy can be an enormous help in learning to deal with and eventually desensitize those triggers.

Keeping you in my thoughts.