I am assuming mammaw means grandmother. I was very attached to my grandfather and I still feel grief over losing him. It doesn't seem fair that such people (to whom we are attached and love unconditionally) should have been born so much earlier than us, so we can't really be with them that long. My grandfather was 88, he lived a long life, but I wasn't born until he was 53. It just didn't seem fair!

I think that's part of why it hurts so much.