Paste for me, please!

I 100% get where you are coming from.

High school was pretty rough for me. I have some good memories and a few good friends (most of which I befriended AFTER graduation), but I was new to a very wealthy and close-knit town. I never really fit in and it was quite obvious. I was also very, very insecure (though I played it off well, being the new kid all the time).

So I missed my 5 year reunion because I got stuck at work (I was in retail and the reunion was on black friday!). We didn't have a 10 year and we ended up having our 15th year reunion in the 16th year after graduation because it was also a partial memorial ceremony for a classmate that was on flight 11 on 9/11. By that time, I felt pretty good about my life. I'd started a really good career, I'd met the love of my life (we weren't yet engaged, but it was close), I felt good about how I looked, etc. We flew to Boston for the reunion and I was so excited! I met a few close friends at a restaurant before the reunion for a drink and that was great fun (all of our spouses got along). Then when we walked into the reunion, I was immediately thrown back into my high school days. NONE of my group from when I was in HS was there (the people I was still friends with were not my close friends during the actual HS years), so immediately, I didn't fit in again. Everyone kind of hung out in their same cliques...it was unreal how little changes. I hated how I felt. I hated being an insecure 17 year old again. There were a few good moments and I did connect with one friend...but the balance of the evening was just plain awful.

I will never go to another one again (besides the fact that I now live 3000 miles away) because I have no desire to feel that way again. I can make contact with the people I want to see...that's enough for me.

I would consider going to my college reunion, but it's also too far away now. I went to my 5 year one for that and it was very fun. I'm sure I would enjoy my 20th (which is just around the corner), but I was a different person in college and some of those people are still my good friends.