thanks, everyone for your words of encouragement. My pony was such a love bug last night... apparently she *knew* I was having a rough day. I brought my trusty bike into town today and plan on skipping out today for a nice long ride. In general, I sort of feel like I'm making progress and healing from this lousy situation. It just amazes me how just seeing exdh reduces me to where I was six months ago. Thanks for the words of comfort girls, you are the greatest!