Veronica - you are perfectly normal. Lossing a beloved pet is hard. Your buddy was not just a cat she was your buddy. Her passing left a huge hole in your heart. I've lost several animals in the past few years and it never gets any easier (if it did I would be very concerned). I have found it quite helpful to write a letter to each of buddies after they cross the Rainbow Bridge. I put the letter in their urn with their ashes. I think the writing not only gives me closure but offers me one last opportunity to tell my beloved companion how much they touched my life and soul. I also look for signs from them to let me know they are okay - their sign (a rainbow, a new addition, a full moon, a dream, etc) always brings me comfort. Call me crazy but I do believe those we love never really leave us.

Do take care of yourself and cry your tears they are part of the healing process.