Trying to get out of my funk...

[MillieNZ]

I feel sad. I felt sad before Tilda passed away, but now it's a bit worse. I think it's normal. It's not like I'm lying in my bed doing nothing. Although that is tempting. We finished the flooring in the office this weekend. It looks good. I know grieving takes time. I know this will pass. I have always disliked December.

I know working out will make me feel better. I don't have the desire to work out. But I know it will make me feel better. I put air in my trainer bike's tires last night, told Thom to make me get on the bike this morning and he did. Making me is him saying, "Hey, weren't you going to work out this morning?" It's more like a nudge.

I did the Ultra Core Full Body DVD. I'm still not using the gearing Coach Troy says. For most of the workout, I'm just keeping it a nice fast spin, cadence between 85 - 90. I varied it a little today to see how my knee would feel - two minutes with the cadence up over 105. That was fun. One minute in big ring and 12, let's hope I don't regret that later today. I've always hated lunges, so I don't mind fast forwarding through those.

Do I feel better? I guess.

V.

Hi V

Grieving sure does take it out of you............. recently my horse lost her first foal shortly after he was born, i bred this horse for a really good friend who was then killed by a drunk driver 3 weeks later......

I know that there will be as many down days as good days and i too fell off the cycle/excerise routine...... then I read in a mag that even when you don't feel like working out/cycling, put your shoes on and try it for 10 mins, if it really desn't feel good after 10 mins then stop and call it a day ( and there will be days like that) but if after 10 mins you still feel like going then aim for 30 and see how you feel after that......i've taken up this motto and so far have kept going :0 and now back excerise with enthusiasm


I stll have days where it all seems so wrong, and writing this has set me off, but things are getting better...

[bmccasland]

Veronica - Big Hugs. Baby steps, give yourself time, but I agree wholeheartdly with Oakleaf - can you get outside? I can say "Erin," "kitty," and "died" in the same sentence without getting a lump in my throat, go to the vet's office for other kittie's needs without feeling the same lump. So it will get better. I can't stay too blue too long when my dog does gentle licks on my hand or leg when the sun is at the appropriate angle for WALK! Seeing an old dog still able to go from 0 to 60, happy dance all over the place does lift the spirits. I've always enjoyed a brisk walk and find that does wonders for my spirits.

Hope you get to feeling back to normal.

[BleeckerSt_Girl]

I've always enjoyed a brisk walk and find that does wonders for my spirits.

Brisk walk helps me to feel better too- something about having your feet connected to the earth as you walk...
Hope you feel a bit better tomorrow.

[makbike]

Veronica - you are perfectly normal. Lossing a beloved pet is hard. Your buddy was not just a cat she was your buddy. Her passing left a huge hole in your heart. I've lost several animals in the past few years and it never gets any easier (if it did I would be very concerned). I have found it quite helpful to write a letter to each of buddies after they cross the Rainbow Bridge. I put the letter in their urn with their ashes. I think the writing not only gives me closure but offers me one last opportunity to tell my beloved companion how much they touched my life and soul. I also look for signs from them to let me know they are okay - their sign (a rainbow, a new addition, a full moon, a dream, etc) always brings me comfort. Call me crazy but I do believe those we love never really leave us.

Do take care of yourself and cry your tears they are part of the healing process.

[RoadRaven]

I stll have days where it all seems so wrong, and writing this has set me off, but things are getting better...

Hugs Millie
We were in contact around this time in PMs... My life has been busy and I have neglected to see how you are faring
Its a long journey, but hopefully you - and Veronica - will begin to have more patches of light in your days more often, than those patches of darkness
Arohanui, Rave

[Velobambina]

V--

Many words of wisdom in this thread, particularly LTBC's wonderful advice & words of comfort. I won't repeat what others have so beautifully wrote. Just know that I share the same sentiments and am thinking of you.

[yellow]

V, I have some extra yippee in my life right now, so I'm sending some your way.

[jobob]

Just don't make her run 50 K !

[maillotpois]

Freak.

[teigyr]

I'll ditto what everyone else has said. When I lost my oldest cat, it was the hardest. He had been with me so long and we had been through so much together, I almost couldn't remember a time when he wasn't there.

That weekend, DH (before he was DH) tried to keep me busy. I would just burst out crying for no reason, even if we were in public. I had so many regrets because I had always told G (my cat) that I'd have a house where he could have an area to go outside. When I fell asleep, I would dream that he was in the house. My gym instructor, who just lost her dog, has had the same reaction with the dreams and sadness.

It takes time. Just get out when you can, even if you think everyone can tell you've been crying. It never goes away but it gets better.