As to your "first love" and at the risk of being controversial, I'd encourage you to not give it another thought. Your DH may feel awkward about you reaching out to someone you admit holding a special place for in your heart...but more importantly, your former flame is either:
- Over what happened, in which case, you will run the risk of stirring old animosity and emotions that he's previously reconciled, or
- Not over what happened, in which case, you will run the risk of becoming the focal point of his festering anger...which will leave you feeling mad and upset
I could be totally wrong, but it seems there's a lot more downside than upside to making this contact...
