Robyn, I think you and I are very much alike in something. Our minds and imaginations can be very powerful allies - and our very worst enemies. I can torture myself beyond belief over health issues - or other issues for that matter. I am so glad you are getting answers to your health questions, and I really support you in finding techniques and people to help you manage and lessen your anxiety. It will make your life so much easier to bear, and will have a hugely positive impact on your health. I am really glad you used the forum for help, and try other things, too. Visualization, journaling, a way to find trust in your body's abilility to heal, maybe even some herbal or homeopathic support like Rescue Remedy? all best, and hugs, Lynda Gene