Robyn --- Nothing helpful to add in terms of advice. I will, however, say a couple prayers for you and will send lots of good thoughts your way. Try to think positive and realize that you have a lot of folks who care about you.

FWIW, I understand about the family. Same thing happened when my dad died in '05 (my mom's been gone since '01). Although I have three siblings, I'm in very limited contact w/only my younger brother. The other two, forget it. It's sad, but for me, it's for the best.