yes, in some ways I do, it just has been a very stressful past couple of months. My DH and I are so happy to be back in CO and I know our current situation is only temporary. I know it is not a good excuse however I grew up in a family that was negative. My DH mentions it all the time that compared to his family mine is much more stoic, and usually not very chipper. I am very chipper at work because I feel that it helps my patients get through another day with plenty of laughs, i just have to bring that atitiude home. I guess now that I wrote that it makes much more sense to me. My DH deserves more of my positive attitude then I let him see. After I say negative things I feel bad and often get frustrated. On the positive note, I have gotten far better then I used to be many years ago. Hope all is well with everyone. S