Thanks very, very much, sistah-friends.

You both make good points, and I know the real pain in this comes from turning it all around on myself, not liking myself, blaming myself, and not being nice to myself. So I will try harder.

My dog has always been my primary love anyway...we adore each other. Maybe after the vet I'll get him a nice red bone.

Btw, ex-bf isn't slime. Just a fairly messed up guy trying to do his best, which wasn't very good.