today i rehomed my gordon setter,i havent cried but i feel like ive been runover by a sherman tank.


he was exhuberant and was draining me,i felt he was lonely despite hrs and hrs of walking and needed doogy company,plus when i went to race i always felt guilty and after any bike he was my priority,consequently im shattered thru and thru physically which meant ive experience big depressive episodes trying to fir in bike/work/dog.SOME MAY THINK IM SELFISH.i prob am,i darnet tell my family friends etc.he has gone to a wonderful doggy home where he'll have loadsa pals and fun.he was so fullsome and possessive of me i could never have friends or MEN in the house without him becoming out of control,another stress.so.........DUNO HOW I FEEL BUT IT AINT THAT GOOD,time now to get a grip on my health,ive lost weight and feel overtrained,but ive a hunch it could all be stress,consequently bike performance this week has slumped. and thats my moan,sorry.