Hill Slugger, what exactly is making you feel this way now? Is it just a bad day, or something more?

Catrin, I say, it is never too late. People have an amazing capacity to change within themselves. Sometimes you need to isolate to break the pattern of abusive relationships/trauma, but it seems like it's been awhile. Never say never and PM me, if you want. I can share some amazing stuff. The positive stuff you never hear.