Your thoughts and heart-felt advice is appreciated thus far. I now have to say...there were 6, now there are 5.

I can't imagine Aggie...

I actually posted a childhood photo of this same sister and myself on this forum over a yr. ago.

I last saw my sister alive this past June when I returned from Europe. I live in Western Canada whereas her and as well as my whole family live in Ontario.

At this time my father's prostate cancer has advanced. So the family is shifting between several different 'crises'.

If it weren't for dearie who helped me familiarize with my new city (for me), I would have been more bereft since I know no one in this city...

If I sound blithe later over time, it is because I embrace life which is why I do continue to write...on subjects I enjoy sharing with others. That as well as cycling (though not right now when it's colder) are convenient distractions. But I think of my sis nearly daily now, whereas before her death, I didn't. I have 5 other siblings...too.

A suicide survivor recently told me that in the darkness of suicidal thoughts, the person has such twisted, wrong perceptions that they are absolutely right what they are doing. This survivor had to deal with the anger (as she concurs the anger is justified) of her own family when she attempted suicide.

I will say this again as I said actually several times over the years on this forum, love your siblings if you can. They are friends for life.