sooooo do you? i have for the past couple of weeks... and even moreso the past few days.... as a matter of fact.... my mileage has dropped considerably...

why do i feel guilty? well... a few weeks ago it dawned on me that i was "ignoring" my dogs (along with housework and yardwork.. but that doesn't bother... they weren't getting the walkies they used to... hikes on the desert.... or even just having us home on the weekends with them... so they can know we are there while they sleep all day...

sooooooooooooooo i decided that next year i will NOT ride my bike 6 days a week.... i planned to still ride on weekends.. but not all day long both days... and limit workdays to tuesdays and thursdays for short rides... and get back into walking the dogs more.... or just laying around on the couch watching movies with them...

so they guilt was already in place... however... do not put off til tomorrow what you can do today.....

you see.... my what i thought one day was a healthy happy 6 year old darling baby boy samoyed... decided to stop eating... not alarming... he's always been finicky... however it continued and progressed to the point that NOTHING would entice him.... sadly... to make a long, sad story short.... after hospitilization, blood tests and ultrasounds, etc (all within the matter of a few, too quick days).... we found out he had stoicly (spelling) been hiding any symptons....

i had taken time off work to ride over the holidays.... i never in a million years dreamed that these days that i didn't end up riding... would be my last with my darling baby boy.....

one day between visiting him in the hospital in the morning and picking him up later to transport him to a differnt vet's office for his ultrasound... i rode.. and cried the whole time... (very short ride).... the other days i didn't ride at all.....then over the weekend (saturday afternoon) i forced myself to go ride since hubby was home with our other dog and 2 cats... and because i felt i had to get some "normalcy" into my day.... i only managed another very short ride.... but the whole time i was out i felt horrible.... guilty.... i couldn't wait to get home and be with brie (dog) and the cats).... sunday i didn't even ride.... just couldn't do it! i keep thinking about the time i "wasted" riding my bike and not spending it with my furbabies.....

hubby tries to tell me not to feel this way... but i can't help it......

thanx for listening.....