Hey Ladies,
Just need a little spot to vent and relieve this little bit of a funk I have been in today.

So, I have been with the SO for 2 years and I love him dearly. We have had our rough spots, but I always figured things would work out.(a lot of the rough spots though had to deal with me feeling more like his mom then his SO, cleaning up after him,etc).

So this past week I have been housesitting for my dad, about 40 minutes from where we live, and he kept blowing off coming over at night. But I understood, to a point. He is an elite duathlete and just made his entrance into the tri world and qualified for oly distance nationals for age group(in his first tri ever). He is working towards going pro at the longer distances and I understand that he has 2 a days almost every day around work.
Ok, back to the story, so Tuesday night he blew off dinner for a run and then later texted me saying we needed to talk about us the next day at lunch(he had wed. off of work and said we would have lunch to make up for missed nights).

Of course... I couldn't settle with finding out the next day and made him talk to me on the phone. Pretty much, he has decided he doesn't have time for a relationship with training, he is very close to having his dream come true and being able to be a pro triathlete is worth more then us.

I am inbetween jobs at the moment, so this just sucks b/c i don't have money to move out at the moment, so I still have to live with him for a little bit.
He says i am his best friend and he doesn't want to lose me as a friend, but to me, that makes it harder.

I have never been so sad that I have spent the whole day in bed, but that is what I did today.
I slept on the couch all day. I got myself up to walk around the neighborhood for a half hour. I never touched my bike, which is bad. I have a race on sunday and i needed to get in some efforts today b/c i have been taking is super easy all week(over trained the past few weeks)

and it is weird b/c for the past few weeks i kind of thought our relationship wasn't working, with how busy he was, but I wasn't prepared for him to end it.


Thanks for letting me vent! even if no one reads this, I think it helped just to write something out.