You asked how to find a counselor. The best way is to start talking to the friends you have where you live. If any of them are in counseling--and you can be sure some of them are---ask them if they like and respect their counselors, if their counselors are SMART (it's not good to get with a counselor who's not as smart as you are), if they help them look at things they hadn't seen before, and help them see new options. Word of mouth, through people you think reasonably well of, is a good way to find a good counselor.
"My predominant feeling is one of gratitude. I have loved and been loved;I have been given much and I have given something in return...Above all, I have been a sentient being, a thinking animal, on this beautiful planet, and that in itself has been an enormous privilege and an adventure." O. Sacks