Let's commiserate together! I used to be nationally-ranked (Olympic tryout) fencer back in the 60's and then gravity and sloth had it's way.

I'm 63 and managed to drop 30 pounds this past summer just from starting to bike again, slow-paced (I'm talking REALLY slow biking) daily biking of no more than 10 miles a day (my arthritis limit back then). Of course the heat helped and not wanting to eat much after biking in the heat. But it really was almost effortless to lose the weight, so don't despair, it will happen.

Be proud of yourself. You are saying yes to your body's health and emotional well-being in the midst of a conflicted life. Woooooohoooooo for you!!!!!!