Milkbone,

I certainly can relate to what you are going through at the moment. When I read your initial post I thought to myself "I know that guy." Your ex sounds a lot like my ex. After a year of counseling and help from some good friends I can now look back at my past relationship and know there were all kinds of problems with it. The end of your relationship is not your fault. Lean on your friends, journal your thoughts, find a good counselor, keep yourself busy, ride and ride some more, etc but whatever you do not beat yourself up over this.